Gratitude

Hi
I see that someone has peeked at my first post.  Thank you for that.  To catch up on what has gone on in my little corner of the world  I started a new job and had a minor medical emergency.  I had to call off during my first week on the job.  I was so afraid I would lose my position.  But I really had no choice.  Can't show up on narcotics and vomiting, just doesn't work in healthcare.  I needed a few days to recover and let the pain meds wear off.   I found out they don't agree with me.  I also found out there were a few people in my life I could really count on to be there for me.  One of my neighbors dropped everything to drive me to the dr.s office and get the meds.  I also never thought my guy, Bear could be such a caregiver.  He just doesn't come across that way.  But he really exceeded my hopes.  He really took care of me, and was there for me last weekend.   It really makes me feel lucky to have him in my life.  Maybe my blood family isn't that important?  I wish the relationship was better and maybe someday it will be.  But there are people who really care about me and treat me the way I want to be treated.  That is  something to be grateful for and I am.
Jenny

Here to make some friends

Hi Blogworld

I am a lurker.  Well I used to be.  But I read so many posts about coming in out of the cold I decided to come in out of the cold.  I am Jenny.  I am in my 40's and trying to discover myself.  I have spent my life trying to please everyone but me.  I thought that if I made my family happy I would be happy.  I learned it doesn't work that way.  I am so tired of being the butt of the family jokes, the one always thought least of and lastly.

Outside my family people seem to genuinely like me.  I get along well at work with others.  I just don't put myself out there to make friendships for fear of rejection.  So a hello and welcome would really be appreciated.
I made some cookies and tea.  Please help yourself. I would put some pictures if I knew how.
Jenny